I have previous posts that detail my history of trying to get off suboxone. I actually tried really hard twice, and both times I was far too physically ill to finish. But as a brief recap: I started using heroin when I was 14 I started shooting up and using heroin on a regular basis at [...]
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My Rawest Confession, and a Plea
This song really hits my heart. I am 31 years old, and my life is far removed from what it once was, yet I will never forget what it was like. I have found peace, and love, and life. The fountain of Messiah Yahushua/Jesus Christ who satisfies. Do you know what it means to be [...]
More, a Poem
(I wrote this about PTSD being triggered) walk lightly over the path unexpected words send me reeling falling head over feet, weightless find something reckless, bring back the feeling when i was young meaning was lost in tomorrow a distant future i strained to see. my eyes were new, and all i saw was more. [...]
Poem “Fire”
This poem came to me in a "steam of consciousness" as many of my poems do. I feel it's about survival of abuse, and coming back stronger than before.
Your Questions about Suboxone During Pregnancy Answered; Series
We hear in the news often about the terrible opiate epidemic plaguing so many of our towns and cities. With a sudden increase in opiate addicts, there has been a subsequent crisis of babies born dependent on opiates (notice I didn't say "addicted", more on that later). Thankfully, more medical professionals are understanding what these [...]
“J”, a Poem
I was thinking about a man I once knew, but this story is about the girl who brought us together; and who we both loved.
How Do You Know, a Poem.
How do you know when something has died? A root from the earth, and stars in her eyes.
How Trauma & Remembering is Impacting Me
This is a hard blog post to make. Honestly, writing at all has been a challenge lately. There is so much sitting in my head that I want to work out with paper and pen; and so much on my ever expanding (neglected) to-do list. I am realizing that it's all connected to my trauma, [...]
Busy Moms Still NEED to Focus on Recovery
I am sitting at my laptop, it's almost midnight. I have my Anatomy and Physiology text books to my left, my homeschooling planner for my 3 kids to my right, and I just swallowed a handful of chocolate like medicine. My 3 daughters are sleeping (for now), and baby brother is finally asleep after I [...]
37 weeks Unassisted Pregnancy
Well, here I am at (almost) 37 weeks pregnant. This is my second unassisted pregnancy but I transferred to the hospital with my first unassisted birth attempt (due to my own unfounded fears, we were fine!). A UP is when a woman receives no professional care during her pregnancy, with a OB or a midwife. [...]
recovering motherhood 