The brown bark of the trees look nearly black from the heavy rain soaking their branches The top of the trees reach skyward like long, bony hands against the almost-winter slate sky The sun has risen just now but the gray covers it's brilliance My baby presses close to me for morning milk And I [...]
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Freebirth Story on New Years Day!
*There is some nudity in these videos of my birth, but not very graphic* https://youtu.be/jcChg3_YFQ8 https://youtu.be/EVl1nn-6A1A https://youtu.be/nVoP6x9vpjI On New Years Day 2019, I gave birth to my 5th baby! My 4th daughter, and 2nd freebirth/unassisted birth. I was 40 weeks exactly, she was actually born on her guess date. I had contractions from my 2nd [...]
Grieving My Aunts Sudden Death, Right Before Giving Birth
I received a text message from my mother before I had gotten out of bed, "Call me when you're up. It's important." I immediately got out of bed, my heart beating faster. I knew something very bad had happened, because there is no way she should ever text me like that otherwise. I tried to [...]
My Unassisted Baby Turns 1 Years Old Today!
One year ago today, at exactly this time, I was in intense labor. I held my husbands hands, as he sat in front of me. I leaned my sweaty head into his chest and moaned "oooooOOOOOOOooooo". I breathed, I swayed, I moved around. I cried. I was brave. And then, he was here. I can [...]
The Wide Open Heart of a Mother
I think it may be the prenatal hormones that are kicking in. I am getting close to my due date (about 6-8 weeks away) and the baby is moving a lot, our connection has grown a lot already as I prepare myself physically and mentally for his arrival. It could be that, I don't know. [...]
The Birds and The Bees; How I Told My 5 year old, and What I Learned.
Today I had the first of what will be many conversations about sex, with my five-year-old daughter. Yes, the birds and the bees. More specifically, how babies are made. I had been trying so hard to avoid this conversation with her. You see, I am pregnant with her baby brother and she really wanted to [...]
Journey to Breastfeeding- Part 2
Baby Liora was about 1.5 weeks old. I threw out the rest of those tiny bottles of formula. I didn’t want them tempting me and taunting me as I tried to nurse my baby. I began to feel as if I was never wearing a shirt. I was always topless and putting her to the [...]
Journey to Breastfeeding- Part 1
*Warning: I do post a single picture of my baby at my chest and my breast is visible* When I think about my second born child, another little baby girl, something that comes to mind immediately is our closeness. I am close to all my children, but I think of our closeness as something solid [...]
recovering motherhood 