Anxiety is an enemy I can't escape. Every morning, it is the gnawing in my gut. The weight on my chest. The relentless feelings of overwhelm. My mind accuses me. Hopeless. Useless. Terrible. Good for nothing. Every interaction with others requires monumental effort. Every minor task, an enormity. Crushed under the weight of all expectations. [...]
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Half Mother- Poem
We won’t go anywhere today My loves Body and mind separate Only a half mother is left Wash the dishes Clean the floors Push back the creeping darkness- Desires Raise your voice an octave and smile There is no help coming There is no one to reach inside you And resuscitate your deteriorating heart No [...]
A Time for Pruning
I am writing to you during a time of global crisis. I am writing to you in a time of personal difficulty. I am writing to you in a time of great uncertainty. I could list all the myriad anxieties that are afflicting me. I could list all the things I think I need, and [...]
Faith and Recovery in the Hard Times
I haven't updated in a bit, and that is because my anxiety has skyrocketed lately. I am taking three online classes, and I got behind. I had a big paper to write, and a midterm test to take. I have felt overwhelmed by that and a few other things. When I feel overwhelmed, I tend [...]
Depression, and Then Lyme Disease
Hello there readers. I have been a bit MIA lately. As should be obvious from my blog, I'm in recovery, and sometimes depression comes and saps me of the energy I need to write. Then, anxiety comes along and says "hey loser, weren't you supposed to write a blog post already?" And then, I get [...]
Accepting Love, After Sexual Trauma.
The deepest kind of sadness is felt by one who is lonely in that sadness. Although I endeavor to share my experience and my hope, there are certain places where that raw loneliness has remained untouched by another human soul. Those deep places, still bleeding after all these years. My sex is something painful. On [...]
recovering motherhood 