The clouds begin to part and my minds begins to wake again. I look around myself. The dishes in the sink. Every table surface covered in lazily misplaced books and toys. I remember that I did not always live this way. I begin to see again, like when your eyes adjust to opening after deep [...]
When I open my eyes The brightness of the morning Tells me I slept late I listen to the peaceful breathing Of my sleeping toddler Curled against my back For a moment, I try to imagine Relief Soon, the weight returns to crush my chest The sickening sense of dread Turns my stomach And despair [...]
We won’t go anywhere today My loves Body and mind separate Only a half mother is left Wash the dishes Clean the floors Push back the creeping darkness- Desires Raise your voice an octave and smile There is no help coming There is no one to reach inside you And resuscitate your deteriorating heart No [...]
I wanted to give a little update on my suboxone detox. You can read my previous post here! I was taking 1/8th of 1mg when I took my last dose on Wed morning. I had to take the kids to their Wed activities. I decided thursday would be my first day without any suboxone- my "jump [...]
I have previous posts that detail my history of trying to get off suboxone. I actually tried really hard twice, and both times I was far too physically ill to finish. But as a brief recap: I started using heroin when I was 14 I started shooting up and using heroin on a regular basis at [...]
I wanted to give an update on how my recovery is going from Lyme, as well as a long overdue update on my suboxone detox journey. If you haven't heard of my suboxone detox experiences yet you can start with this blog post. I am feeling significantly better with the Lyme disease. I finished my [...]
We hear in the news often about the terrible opiate epidemic plaguing so many of our towns and cities. With a sudden increase in opiate addicts, there has been a subsequent crisis of babies born dependent on opiates (notice I didn't say "addicted", more on that later). Thankfully, more medical professionals are understanding what these [...]
I was thinking about a man I once knew, but this story is about the girl who brought us together; and who we both loved.