Coming to

Coming to

The clouds begin to part and my minds begins to wake again. I look around myself. The dishes in the sink. Every table surface covered in lazily misplaced books and toys. I remember that I did not always live this way. I begin to see again, like when your eyes adjust to opening after deep [...]

Dread of Morning- Poem

When I open my eyes The brightness of the morning Tells me I slept late I listen to the peaceful breathing Of my sleeping toddler Curled against my back For a moment, I try to imagine Relief Soon, the weight returns to crush my chest The sickening sense of dread Turns my stomach And despair [...]

Half Mother- Poem

Half Mother- Poem

We won’t go anywhere today My loves Body and mind separate Only a half mother is left Wash the dishes Clean the floors Push back the creeping darkness- Desires Raise your voice an octave and smile There is no help coming There is no one to reach inside you And resuscitate your deteriorating heart No [...]

My Rawest Confession, and a Plea

My Rawest Confession, and a Plea

This song really hits my heart. I am 31 years old, and my life is far removed from what it once was, yet I will never forget what it was like. I have found peace, and love, and life. The fountain of Messiah Yahushua/Jesus Christ who satisfies. Do you know what it means to be [...]

Update on my Physical Health (Lyme, and Detox)

I wanted to give an update on how my recovery is going from Lyme, as well as a long overdue update on my suboxone detox journey. If you haven't heard of my suboxone detox experiences yet you can start with this blog post. I am feeling significantly better with the Lyme disease. I finished my [...]

Your Questions about Suboxone During Pregnancy Answered; Series

We hear in the news often about the terrible opiate epidemic plaguing so many of our towns and cities. With a sudden increase in opiate addicts, there has been a subsequent crisis of babies born dependent on opiates (notice I didn't say "addicted", more on that later). Thankfully, more medical professionals are understanding what these [...]