This spring weather has been unpredictable. Unseasonably warm sunshine bleeds into dark curling storm clouds, threatening tornados. Some evenings I walk outside and breathe in the smell of the wet earth, growing again after the floods. Then, I take the children for walks during the day and we save half-dried worms off the warming concrete sidewalks. I’m not sure why, but I could never leave them there to wither.
Category: Natural Birth
Freebirth Story on New Years Day!
*There is some nudity in these videos of my birth, but not very graphic* https://youtu.be/jcChg3_YFQ8 https://youtu.be/EVl1nn-6A1A https://youtu.be/nVoP6x9vpjI On New Years Day 2019, I gave birth to my 5th baby! My 4th daughter, and 2nd freebirth/unassisted birth. I was 40 weeks exactly, she was actually born on her guess date. I had contractions from my 2nd [...]
Big Family Chaos, Letting Go and Letting God
Two days to my due date with our 5th baby, and after weeks of trying to keep our home clean and organized...it's all falling apart. The holidays, the contractions, the chaos of four little ones who are inside most of the time lately; it is just impossible to maintain for very long. Then, the sudden [...]
Nesting, Nesting, Nesting- 39 Weeks Pregnant
I kind of overdid it today. I had to sit down, and drink some orange juice. Nesting is the phenomenon many pregnant women experience towards the end of their pregnancies, where they feel the need to clean and organize everything before the baby comes. I always get this sudden urge to scrub, vacuum, wash, and [...]
Nearing Birth, 37 Weeks Unassisted
Lately, there has been a major shift; physically and emotionally. I frequently wake up in the middle of the night, and the very early morning. I carefully move my legs out of bed, trying not to cause my hips more pain. I limp over to the kitchen and get something to drink and snack on. [...]
32 Weeks Pregnant; Putting Away Fear, Embracing Intuition
I can't believe I am 32 weeks (plus 4 days) into this unassisted pregnancy journey. I have mentioned before that this was my most difficult pregnancy, and being my 5th I have been given no time for rest! Especially with my very adorable, but very demanding 2yr old son. I have also been much BIGGER [...]
31 Weeks Pregnant Unassisted Journal
I have not been blogging lately. This has been a difficult pregnancy for me. My body seems to be a bit tired, and carrying this 5th baby in 8 years has taken a toll. I have tried to enjoy being pregnant, like I normally do, but it has not been easy. Every day my hips [...]
21 Weeks Pregnant UC Journal- Kicks and Cramps
I don't know if it's because I've reached the magical age of 30 or if it's because I have 4 children already, but pregnancy #5 is not easy. I basically feel like an old lady every day. My legs hurt, back hurts, and I want to sleep. I normally love this stage of pregnancy and [...]
16 Weeks Pregnant and Breastfeeding
So, the weeks are flying by this pregnancy. I think having my first totally unassisted pregnancy is contributing to that feeling, because I don't have my weeks punctuated with doctor's visits and ultrasounds. Taking care of my four children, especially my toddler, is taking most of my mental space. Speaking of which, my little 21 [...]
14 Weeks Pregnant Already? (Unassisted Pregnancy Journal)
The belly is obvious, and soon I will feel kicking (I usually feel my babies around 16 weeks). I cannot believe the 1st trimester is over already. I was feeling really exhausted and sick, so I am thankful to be mostly back to my normal self again. Of course I am still exhausted, but the [...]
recovering motherhood 