What I will remember, The salt in the air comes Before eyes find the water Holding her tiny hand, As she toddles over lumps of sand Carrying the stroller across My back, because the wheels stick What I will remember is The sound of their laughter, The pride in their face when they Show me [...]
When puberty came, I kept Body slim and hungry When the male gaze found me, I covered Body with baggy clothes Scars form valleys and roads across Body, such as I raged against it Fingers down my throat, punishing. Young adulthood brought new understandings, Body grew and I allowed it to expand, to get full [...]
When I open my eyes The brightness of the morning Tells me I slept late I listen to the peaceful breathing Of my sleeping toddler Curled against my back For a moment, I try to imagine Relief Soon, the weight returns to crush my chest The sickening sense of dread Turns my stomach And despair [...]
We won’t go anywhere today My loves Body and mind separate Only a half mother is left Wash the dishes Clean the floors Push back the creeping darkness- Desires Raise your voice an octave and smile There is no help coming There is no one to reach inside you And resuscitate your deteriorating heart No [...]
Summer is here, and maybe you have a reluctant reader in your house (like I do). Or maybe you want to keep an organized list of what books your child reads this summer. In any case, a simple reading log can be an encouragement to children and a reminder to parents to keep reading this [...]
I turned 32 today. It has been 12 years since I met my husband. I have been a mother for 9 years. My 20s were filled with so much. Some very good things, like love and motherhood and faith. Some very painful things, like mental illness and struggling financially. I feel as if I have [...]
I wrote this piece on Medium. It was very hard for me to confess this addiction I have, but I hope it is the first step to freedom.
When I was 15, I was in a “residential treatment center”. Basically, I lived with other teen girls in a big house and we went to school and therapy together. It was actually a very nice one (thanks mom). But the point of this story is this- one day during group therapy we were talking [...]
I am not the most organized mom, so I appreciate when things are made simple for me. With 5 kids who I homeschool, I don't have a lot of time to put together bible teachings. But it is important to me that they learn the scriptures, and enjoy learning too! Our family is observing the [...]
The brown bark of the trees look nearly black from the heavy rain soaking their branches The top of the trees reach skyward like long, bony hands against the almost-winter slate sky The sun has risen just now but the gray covers it's brilliance My baby presses close to me for morning milk And I [...]
recovering motherhood 