My faith has been quietly, and slowly growing in strength. I had an experience yesterday that was small yet significant for me. A few years ago I began attending a weekly group with my children called Pathways. It is from an organization that helps individuals and families improve their lives financially. It has been a blessing to me in many ways, esp. by forming friendships with others, and giving the children fun activities each week on Tues night. So, that is where I was yesterday evening.
At the end of the adults meeting, they raffled off 10 dollar gas cards. They do this most weeks, as a little way to help out. This month was particularly hard for us, because of a few unexpected expenses and my husband working only part time while in school. It was very tough some days this month, to the point where I did not always have 10 dollars to put in the gas tank. I don’t normally win anything, but this time I won the card.
As soon as I won the card, I felt strongly that I should give it to a woman I know “R”. R was crossing her fingers in hopes of winning the card, and mentioned earlier that she really needed it this week. She does not normally do that, so I believed she must not have money for gas right now. It is the very end of the month.
I have not felt a leading by the Spirit like that in a very long time. It was unmistakable. I knew God was saying “give her the card”. I said to myself, “yes but…we really have struggled too. We could really use it too” but it didn’t matter. The leading was strong, and I knew on a deep level that I was supposed to give it to her.
The group began to disperse, and I walked over to her and gave her the card. She was thankful, and asked me if I was sure. We hugged each other, and I assured her it was fine. I started to make my way out of the the room when the group leader quietly pulled me aside and said, “that was really nice of you” and then handed me a new card.
This is where it may not seem so significant to others, but it meant so very much to me. I have wrestled with trusting God and following the lead of the Spirit. Even though it was just a 10 dollar gas card, it meant something to me, and I stepped out in trust and gave it to the person God wanted me to give it to. Unbeknownst to me, the leader saw my action and had it in her heart to replace the card for me.
If I had not listened to the Spirits leading, R would have missed out on getting those 10 dollars she really needed, the group leader would not have seen a small act of kindness, and I would have missed out the most on a spiritual lesson. All I had to do was TRUST God, follow his lead, and he immediately replaced what I gave away. He provided the money back to me right away. It showed me his love and care, and reminded me that he knows what I need. My job is not to stress and worry, my job is to trust Him.
He gave me a tiny task to give a small blessing to someone else, and in the process he showed me a small miracle.
Matt 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these. things shall be added unto you.