recovering motherhood

Recovery. Family. Faith.

Where does this despair hide itself from the rest of me when life is going smoothly? Does it seep into the corners of my mouth when I smile? Does it retreat into the shadows of my insides? How can it escape notice from the very person it inhabits? Until—a nightmare during sleep opens me up …

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I am stronger than you think I am I refuse to allow myself to be abused during labor again I am healthy My baby is healthy Pregnancy is NOT a disease or illness Birth is a normal physiological process, not a medical emergency I am prepared for the worst, but will not expect the worst …

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Dear Mother, Dear Father: There is no easy introduction. There is no careful beginning to help soften the blow. When I was a child, a small child, I was sexually abused. This is a confession a life-time in the making. This is a truth never uttered verbally from my lips. Even staring at those words …

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